today was slack .
netball was slack .
lessons were slack .
to make things easier , EVERY DAMN THING WAS SLACK .
and the week has just only started , Monday .
i seriously need to get a grip of myself .
i seriously need to think about getting good grades .
i need to think about my CCA .
i need to think about my religion .
i need to think about consequences if what i'm supposed to be doing daily is not being done !
i know my weaknesses&strengths .
and i really need to strengthen my weaknesses .
i cannot be self-centred&I really have to concentrate in studies .
since this year started , i have never done proper revision sessions before .
everyday , it's simply homework&then computer .
i know this is not the real me .
in primary school , i was very consistent about my study hours .
now everything is gone like the wind .
i played truant by not attending my CCA .
i lied to my mom because i didn't want to attend religious class .
sheeshzx .
i have issues .
i don't know why i take things for granted .
my mom is kind enough when i told her i had issues&that i need counselling .
she said she will get me a therapist .
a therapist .
not a counsellor .
i know she loves me a lot but i don't know why i don't want to make her proud .
what the heck .
i hate myself .
well , at least for now .
this is the 2 pieces of good news for today:
i'm in the girls' soccer team&i attended CCA .