.Sunday, May 31, 2009
hey guys . holidays have already started . though , i haven't quite feel the holiday feeling yet . ahaha . bad news is , i won't be updating as much due to the fact that i'm going overseas&stuff . and , it's a time to catch up on family . well , that's what Daddy says . anyway , i hope to catch up with BP Crew too . i miss them like hell . Troy just called me the other day . saying he misses me&stuff . and that he would not ever forget me . and i just took it all in . like Nab says , suck it up . haha . anyway , i haven't got much to talk about . i wish everyone a very happy holiday ! ok , lame -.- i feel like typing&typing but i just don't know what to say . ahaha . ohh yeaah , if you read my previous post , it's about an argument . i've made up my mind . i won't entertain such things no more . say what you want about me , i won't give a shit . and , fyi , i tell everything that is happening in my life to my mother so don't be surprised if she comes&find you . i'm not mommy's girl but my mummy is my best friend . i don't entertain backstabbers&hypocrites , they are lame losers who have got nothing better to do than to hurt other people's feelings . right , let's move on . somebody is making me fall back into his trap again . this time , i don't know if his really serious . i keep asking him if his serious but he avoids the question . i'm agitated uh ey ! haha . okay , i'm gonna go bug him again . bye bye . take care .-.-'
XOXO
.Thursday, May 28, 2009
damn , this is fvcking stoopid what i'm about to do right now .
i am going to confess all my feelings about the friendship between Arjunna&Farwizah&me .
firstly , me&Arjunna are supposedly best friends .
though sometimes , we are pissed off with each other .
i understand why , though .
simply because , in primary school , Arjunna hung out with mat reps&I hung out with gangsters .
gangsters have a gang called KTM , which stands for ''kill the mats'' .
so i still have a bit of difficulty adapting to Arjunna because of her peers .
when i tell my gangster friends about Arjunna , they get 'eew'ed' and they keep telling me ''if she tries to harm you , tell us . we go find her''
but i keep saying ''it's cool , i know how to look after myself''
i understand that my gang is very protective of me though sometimes , they pass the line .
but that's okay .
then sometimes , Arjunna&me get into an argument .
we do not fight aloud but we do it silently .
it goes like this - we act like everything is normal . we do not talk about secrets&personal things , we talk formally . both of us dare not speak up anything about the fight .
slowly but surely , things get back to normal&we're like BFF .
weird , right ?
yet , i like it that way .
rather than we fight .
it goes on like forever .
during the period when we fight , i forget about how much fun i had with her .
i thought i wouldn't need her forever .
then , we came on good terms&I realized how much fun it is to have Arjunna in my life .
like what she said , it is better to be yourself rather than acting who you wanna be .
so i am happy that both of us let nature do it's thing .
as in , let time pass by&we re-think about what is going on .
so that's the friendship that me&Arjunna share .
about Farwizah , Arjunna&I are so angry with her .
we're not jealous or anything , let me just clarify .
i mean , who would want to be jealous of her ?
she has pimples all over her face , her parents are so strict in everything , she sucks in studies , she acts like a minah when she's not&she makes a fool out of herself .
a whole lot of people in school dislikes her .
Arjunna&I are angry at her because , when we were friends with her , she treated us like slaves more than friends .
ordering us to buy her drinks , ordering us to buy her food , ordering us to hold her things&this last thing that pisses me off - she uses my phone to msg her boyfriend just because she knows i have unlimited msges .
and she uses it the whole day&I'm like , 'wtf?'
it just shows in her upbringing that she is one hell of a anak setan .
she is acting who she is not , a minah wanna-be .
puh-lease , laa ey .
and when Arjunna did not come to school , she asked me to join her because she pities me .
i didn't want to , but i did anyway .
so when Arjunna came back , i went with Arjunna .
Farz got kind of angry , i dunno .
and i'm like , 'whaaaat? you said you pitied people who are alone and i ain't alone no more'
can you please like , think twice before you accuse other people of something ?
God ! -.-
i feel that this finger suits you , -'-
let's just put it this way , Farwizah .
we just stay classmates/schoolmates .
because , i'm sure nobody's life will suffer if they lost you .
XOXO
.Tuesday, May 26, 2009
today was so fun in school !
actually only during Physical Education lesson .
that's coz i played soccer&I scored 3 goals .
my class played against 1E4 .
we were lacking of 3 players but i think we managed a draw , 8-8 .
i tackled one soccer player&then , scored a goal .
his teammate shouted at him : how could you let a girl score , you asshole ?!
i could see that the soccer player was embarrassed .
\LAWL/
who said girls are lousy in soccer ?
anyway , before school , mummy dropped me off by the bus stop .
guess who alighted from the bus ?
my co-form teacher .
she asked me how is secondary life&we kind of bonded(:
anyway , after P.E. was English .
i dreaded it .
i love English (i've always enjoyed English lessons)but this year , the teacher makes it suckish .
what the eff , you know !
sheeshzx~
after that , the subjects were all boring .
i dreaded the day .
Arjunna is still sick .
poor her .
anyway , my form teacher changed the seating arrangements .
i sit beside a nerd .
but , luckily , i got one of the 'most-wanted' seat .
right at the back , near the door .
so i can lean against the wall&slack whenever i want to&msg whenever i want to .
ehehe .
after school , went to McDonald's with Farz .
i bought a double cheese&Farz bought McChicken .
then went home .
it was around 4pm .
then , i didn't know what i did .
or rather i forgot .
now , the computer clock reads 7.02pm .
i feel sleepy .
my eye bags are damn obvious .
my face is ugly .
urgh , what the hell .
XOXO
.Monday, May 25, 2009
the clock showed 2.10pm .
20minutes , i thought to myself , 20minutes till the day is over .
i stared blankly out the window , oblivious to the surroundings .
the sun was staring directly back at me , i was squinting my eyes .
i turned around to look at him .
he saw me&I quickly turned away .
could it be that i like him ?
i continued staring outside the window , my mind thinking about the time when me&him so close ,
almost like inseparable .
i don't know what happened , but we suddenly fell apart .
now , i yearn to be close to him again but i don't know just how to say it to him .
i think about me&him , locked up in a room .
''The lights are out and I barely know you .
We’re going up and the place is slowing down .
I knew you’d come around .
You captivate me , something about you got me .
I was lonely now , you make me feel alive .
Will you be mine tonight ?
Take me on the floor .
I can’t take it any more .
You kill me with your touch .
My heart is racing as you’re moving closer .
You take me higher with every breath I take .
Would it be wrong to stay ?
One look at you and I know what you’re thinking .
Time’s a bitch and my heart is sinking down .
You turn me inside out .
Take me on the floor .
I can’t take it any more .
I want you to show me love .
Just take me on the floor , I can give you more .''
(lyrics from The Veronicas - Take Me On The Floor)
XOXO
.Sunday, May 24, 2009
today was such a bore .
i had , again , just six hours of sleep .
from 1am to 7am , but in the midst , i don't know what woke me up at exactly 5.30am .
i laid in bed till 8plus then washed up&went down .
Dan&gang(read my previous post) slept over .
they were all over the house - third floor , second floor , first floor .
gosh , chaotic !
had breakfast around 9am .
had a nice long chat with Nenek , while the other adults&all the kids went swimming ,
for one&a half hours .
i asked Nenek to stay here .
me&her have a love-hate relationship .
when i like her , i really like her .
when i hate her , i really hate her .
i guess it's normal , tho' .
showered around 12pm .
the day was so hot that i was perspiring even though the fan was blaring at my face .
at 2pm , i decided to switch my air-conditioner in my room&never switch it off .
so whenever i am feeling hot downstairs , i'd just go up to cool down in my room .
now is 7.37pm&my air-conditioner is still on .
haha .
did not go out at all .
boring .
at least i know that someone is stuck at home too , feeling the same way as i do .
that someone is no other than my best friend , Nabilah .
ahaha .
around 5pm , had a very very very long chat with Nab&Monyet on MSN .
monyet is attached , omg !
the three of us have been best friends since 2007 .
we're inseparable .
went off around 6pm .
oh yes ! , i finally set a new record for Facebook's Word Challenge !
a score of 21- - - , i forgot .
ahha .
now it's 7.42pm .
i'm waiting for dinner , mummy ordered McDonalds .
yeay !
mummy&Haziq are watching Formula 1 .
i'm speechless , don't know what to talk about .
ahha .
ohh man , lessons will continue tomorrow !
i wish exams were still on .
we just have to revise what we have learnt&sit for a test .
once we're done with the test , we're done for the day .
man ohh man .
that's ok , there's still end of year exams .
AHAHA !
if you think that my blog posts are lame/i am lame , don't say anything .
just leave my site .
guess that's it for today .
ooh ! McD is here .
k , bye .
XOXO
.Saturday, May 23, 2009
so now i stare at the computer screen - blank , speechless , thoughtless , but never heartless .insomnia strikes again .
i want to sleep but i simply can't .
i keep thinking about this particular person .
a boy .
i don't want to do this any longer .
i don't want to make the same mistakes .
i want to forget you but why is it so hard ?
did i fall for you that hard ?
all this time i wasted , hoping you would come around .
it has taken me this long but i've realized my mistakes .
you can tell me you're sorry but i know you're not .
why did you never tell me the truth ?
why did you play me ?
why did you call me those names when you never felt the same way as i do ?
as much as i would like to call you a liar , i can't .
because i know you're not .
as much as i don't want to do this any longer(liking you) , i can't .
because i keep re-reading your msges&it kills me deep down .
as much mistakes i know i did , i don't know why i don't regret making those mistakes .
because i got what i wanted ; to get to know you .
i don't know what's wrong with me .
am i falling for you that bad ?
on the other hand , i know somebody is angry at me for liking him but i don't give a damn .
i will do what i please .
i'll keep liking him&i will find a way to stop liking him .
complicated ain't it ?
i know .
XOXO
.Saturday, May 23, 2009
this morning i woke up around 7am .
damn early .
i only had 6 hours of sleep .
i felt sleepy but i just couldn't go back to sleep .
there is so much things on my mind .
friendships , studies , family , love&all that stuff .
i tossed&turned in my bed but i could never go back to sleep .
at around 8.45am , i washed up&went downstairs .
had breakfast - 2pieces of bread with sliced cheese .
then around 9.30am , Afiq msged me to apologized about last night - we were msging at 1am &he fell asleep .
ahaha .
at 11am , i went to follow mummy to Giant to buy the BBQ stuff .
we were having BBQ later .
Izati couldn't make it so mummy asked to invite my other friends .
i invited Hafiz .
he asked Redza&Amirul to come along too but both of them couldn't make it .
so only Hafiz came around 4.30pm .
my cousins were so irritating&I saw Hafiz looking bored .
damn , i hate my cousins .
they are so the K-E-N-T-A-L .
then he asked me to ask Leonard to come along too , since Leonard lived near me .
so Leonard came around half an hour later .
ate spaghetti .
but i think Leonard did not eat .
my mummy asked Hafiz ''so how is Shaqila in school?''
Hafiz said : jahat .
grr , not true !
ehhe xD
then the 3 of us went to the playground .
climbed the top of the playground .
ahaha .
then Hafiz&Leonard played ''volleyball tournament'' .
\LAWL/
Leonard cheated a lot but Hafiz gave him a lot of chances .
them my mom asked me to buy Coke at Simpang Bedok .
so we went then from there Hafiz&Leonard went back home .
damn heavy siaa the Coke .
3 big bottles , you know , i had to carry .
the BBQ went on but i stayed at home .
i hate my cousins that's why .
ever since Dan&his family united with us(they ran away 14 years ago) , Nick(my closest cousin)has changed .
he joined Dan in smoking weed&all that bad stuff .
urgh , that's why i hate Dan&gang .
but , what to do .
just have to accept the fact .
i stayed at home , listened to radio&played computer&msged Afiq .
boring siaa .
if only Ddin wasn't at his grandfather's house , he could have came .
ohh , wtf .
it's only 8.16pm now .
what the fvck to do the whole night ?
play computer ?
siao .
i see another night of insomnia for me .
wtf .
(8.21pm)
i know ! Graffiti&Tektonik .
i can practice .
ahha .
k , bye .
XOXO
.Friday, May 22, 2009
yesterday , mummy , Aunty Reeny , Raelene , Ranette , Ranae&I went for karaoke at
K-box , Downtown East .
it was our annual Ladies' Night .
not that we only meet once a year but we have this karaoke thing yearly .
this year , yesterday , we karaoke-ed for 5hours !
do you believe it ?!
we started at 8pm and ended at 1am !
we sang a lot of songs .
from English to Malay&from new to old .
Raelene&I caught up a lot .
i'm closest with her as she is the same age as me .
we took snapshots with each other but as you know , i can't upload it .
i can't find the cable .
ahha .
Ranae was a bit grouchy towards the end of the night .
excuse her tho' , she's only 9 years old .
i wore a long-sleeved shirt that says 'Glam , Party , Disco' & mini checkered skirt .
Raelene wore short shorts&i forgot the top but both our tops were grey .
ahha .
both mommies wore skinnies .
i was dancing like crazy that my feet hurt at 12midnight because i was wearing
2 inches high-heels :/
so Raelene&me sang barefooted .
lol .
well at least we got our own karaoke room .
the number was 18 .
then half way through , Raelene&me went to the washroom .
took more snapshots ;D
what else ... ?
around 1.10am , the mommies decided to leave .
Ranae was already asleep but Raelene , Ranette&I were disappointed to leave .
mommy gave them a ride home .
so we reached home around 1.40am .
slept around 2am .
when i got up at 6.30am , i woke up like as i had a good night's sleep .
i didn't feel any tiredness .
in fact , i felt like i did not sleep at all !
damn , i need more karaoke nights .
ahha .
XOXO
.Friday, May 22, 2009
today Nana did not come to school .
so i was alone .
had recess alone , went to classes alone .
then when recess was almost over , Farz asked me to sit with her&her friends .
i was surprised .
we started talking about normal things ; exams&results .
then soon , we started talking about girlstuff ; boyfriends , pimples(LOL) , minah kerek(s) & all that .
Hafiz didn't talk to me .
but , i guess that's OK .
so now , Farz my friend .
just a friend , nothing more .
after school , we went to Bedok Interchange for nothing .
just that we didn't want to go home so early .
ahha .
i reached home around 2pm .
was perspiring from the outstanding heat .
i change into cool clothes&tied my hair into a ponytail .
i dare not tie my hair into a ponytail when i go to school if not the stoopid people will say that i am a minah .
why do they think that girls are minah(s) when they tie their hair up high ?
ain't it stoopid ?
it's just a cool trend that minah(s) like .
WTF .
and , cool clothes as in clothes that have bright colours in order not to absorb heat since it's scorching hot .
then Rayan got up from his 4hour sleep .
i wish i could sleep for 4hours in the afternoon .
ahha .
didn't eat lunch .
had 4 rice balls .
i think you guys may not know what rice balls are but , heck , go find out yourself .
i'm lazy to explain .
ahha .
anyway , later my daddy is gonna fetch me(boring) .
well , at least it's only for dinner¬ for the whole weekend , hehe !
i'm bored .
so i decided to do a survey .
i got it from my dearest Izati'Kenet .
> WHO'S
> Who are you liking?
> someone .
> Who is your best friend?
> Ddin .
> Who makes you happy?
> Ddin .
> Who is your favorite family member on your moms side?
> Nick .
> Who is your favorite family member on your dads side?
> Zara .
> Who are you closest to?
> Ddin .
> Who do you tell your secrets to?
> Ddin&Nab&Izati .
> Who were you with last night?
> Mummy , Aunty Reeny , Raelene , Ranette&Ranae .
> Who do you live with?
> Mummy , stepdad , brother , baby brother&maid .
> WHAT'S
> What's your full name?
> Shaqila bte -my-dad's-name
> What's your birthdate?
> 16111996
> What's your favourite color?
> Purple&black&silver .
> What's your favorite sport?
> soccer .
> What's your favorite number?
> 9
> What do you do in your spare time?
> lie down&listen to the radio
> What are your pets names?
> i don't fancy pets .
> What's your favorite song?
> for now , Lovestruck by V Factory .
> all time , It's OK by Atomic Kitten .
> What's your favorite T.V. show?
> MTV Hits . ahha .
> What's your favorite movie?
> a lot , i suppose .
> What vehicles do your parents drive?
> Honda Stream(mom)&Honda Accord(dad)
> WHERE'S
> Where were you on your last birthday?
> chalet with my girlfies ;D
> Where do you live?
> mansionette in Singapore .
> Where do you want to live?
> Australia .
> Where was your last vacation to?
> Phuket , Thailand .
> Where did you go in a car last?
> Karaoke Box @ Downtown East !
> Where do your grandparents live?
> semi-detached house !
> Where do you want to go to college?
> not sure yet . hey , i'm only 13 .
> Where is your heart?
> with him .
> WHEN'S
> When did/will you graduate?
> 2012 , i suppose ?
> When do you want to get married?
> 24/25/26 years of age .
> When are you happy?
> when someone lights up my world .
> When did you cry last?
> yesterday .
> When are you moving next?
> i just moved , boob .
> When did you last get a text?
> five minutes ago .
> When are you going to bed?
> late , duh . it's Friday night , idiot .
> When is the last time you took a vitamin?
> probably last year . hahaha .
> WHY'S
> Why do you think you were born?
> coz my parents had sex&my dad's sperm went into my mom's egg ?
> Why is Britney Spears so messed up?
> no idea but i love her .
> Why are you stressed?
> have la eh ...
> Why is MySpace so addictive?
> reallie it is ? i don't think so . i think the song Lovestruck is so addictive . hehs .
> Why do clowns scare people?
> i wouldn't know coz it doesn't scare me :D
> Why are you bored?
> coz there's nothing fvcking good to do .
> Why is Tom Cruise so weird?
> because his an asshole ?
> Why are you taking this survey?
> are you seriously stoopid ? i'm bored .
XOXO