.Wednesday, June 03, 2009
''if there's a will, there's a way''
the sec3 guy said that to me.
we were talking just now.
he said that i sound different today, different in a way that i don't talk a lot today.
i said my attention was focused on the computer.
the answer i gave, it was partly true.
actually, the truth is, i have got a lot of things to say.
so many more things.
but i refrain myself from saying those things because you are 'not mine'.
(if you know what i mean)
i think about him every time, every second, every hour, every day.
i miss him even when we have just bid goodbye.
i say to him that i like him a bit, but i think i like him a lot.
(actually i know that i like him a lot)
and when i do think of him, another part of me thinks that i shouldn't be thinking about him that much as he doesn't feel the same way as i do.
but i can't help myself.
seriously.
i feel like asking him how he feels about me, but surely his answer is not what i want to hear.
i have to make a decision, to stand up for myself.
but i don't know what to do.