.Wednesday, September 16, 2009
bloody hell. where were you when i needed you the most?the sentence up there goes to [____] & Ddin.
today sucked real bad. at the sickest time of your life, it happens.
i didn't realy understand what i typed but i know it means something--'
tell me, what do you do when it ALL falls apart?
and heck, i mean all.
i'm drifting away from my family, i can tell. my 'friends' are drifting away from me, it's so friggin' obvious. my love life? let's not even go there coz it's private. but it has it's problems. yknw what? i feel like i'm the middle person of everything. tell me, who are my true friends? Nabilah and Ddin. but i don't get to see them in my everyday life. and heck, they're the ones whom i need by my side everyday. it's so depressing. the others come and go. and i don't know if i should cherish them. i won't say their names. sometimes, i feel that they just give me false hopes. at times, they treat me like i'm their everything. it's seriously depressing.
i wish i could just vanish. i wish i could just close my eyes and never open 'em again. i wish i wasn't even brought into this damn world. i wouldn't have to worry about anything. but the best part is that, i wouldn't screw up peoples' lives. coz i realize that's what i've been doing. again, i won't say the names but i think you know who you are.
I"M SORRIE
and yknw what? Hari Raya is just round the corner. and that's the time when problems come rolling in. stupidstupidstupid. life sucks.