.Thursday, September 03, 2009
Dear Diary,
is the choice i made really what i want?
i'm afraid i made the wrong choice.
both of them are just so nice and i wish i could have them both but of course i know it's impossible.
or should i just back out?
should i go solo?
i'm so confused.
i don't know what to do.
i don't know what to think.
i don't know what to say.
it's like, there's thousands and thousands of emotions that i'm feeling inside of me but i just can't express it out.
what should i do?
i don't want to sleep on the problem but it seems that i've been doing it all this while.
i am confused.
i need help.
but i don't know who i can talk to.
Nabilah's the most comfortable person i can talk to but she's so far away.
i don't want to confide in her thru' texts!
i want face-to-face.
but it'd be impossible. what more with my grades slacking and exams just round the corner.
i'm so confused.
i'm a complicated person.
oh! talking about my grades. i got my progress report card back. my highest is A2. slack, huh? and that was Malay. lowest was Science. i flunked. whatthaheck. 44% But luckily my conduct was Very Good. Daddy says that's the most important. hmm, why we talking 'bout my daddy? weird. ok, anyway. Arjunna was by my side the whole day. well, almost the whole day. heh. went recess with her and then halfway, Benjamin sat with us too! he thinks me and Arjunna are crazie. couldn't blame him, tho'. me and Arjunna were laughing the whole time. \Lawl/
after school, i went to collect my class photos. i burst out laughing hysterically when i looked at the fun shots XD after that, went for Council meeting. a short one. thank God. i got a lollipop! heh. Mutalif let me choose what flavor i want XD so after that, went outside the gate to wait for Mummy to fetch me. somebody gave me a shock. Ahmas. i was reading a text and he suddenly appeared behind me. i was dumbfounded /: hah.
and then, me and Mummy went somewhere. cannot tell XP then, went back home. watched last night's Singapore Idol Results Show since i was busy when the show was showing live. hahaha. too bad Jannah's out. i reallie like her. and, whooo, hottie Farhan is in. Nabilah and I agreed that he is the Malay version of Joe Jonas. ehehe.
wow. September holiday is gonna be an interesting one! fun-filled with homework, revision, homework, revision and more homework and revision! yeaaaayy !!
HAHAHA. Sarcastic -.-
i will update tomorrow, it's a promise.
and promises were never meant to be broken(: