.Saturday, October 31, 2009
today was very interesting
and it is raining again
yet again
oh, how very wonderful
to Y O U
you don't seem to realize
how much you hurt me
you and your broken promises
you and your false hopes
you and your mistakes
but when i do what you did to me
your mood changes
and you can be mad @ me
but you failed to realize that
you've been doing the same thing to me
everything has to be about you huh
what a sad sad thing
it really is a sad thing
XOXO
.Friday, October 30, 2009
but you're still my numba one
i am so lonely. and living in a big house doesn't help. it so does not help. and the more i'm alone at home, the more i am thinking about g h o s t s and s p i r i t s. plus, it's raining heavily. with sudden thunders and lightnings. the desk shakes , it scares me. the electrical switches make weird whizzing noises. i'm afraid the house will blackout. it's almost 8pm. i've been alone for four hours. it's like i'm in a haunted mansion. what do you expect? my house is four storeys high, i'm at the highest storey and below, it's so dark. the only room that is lighted is the room i'm in, the study. i'm afraid to go out to switch on the lights for the staircase. i'm afraid to go to my room, in fear that a deadly figure would appear. oh dear God, i am so scared. another thunder just roared. eh, roared? thunder roars? i dunno. what i know is i'm afraid. electrical switches making noise again. oh my God. what do i do? the house is so silent. it scares me. it really really scares me.
XOXO
.Friday, October 30, 2009
Hello Lovelehs.
the reason why i haven't been updating my blog is simply this :
i d o n ' t k n o w w h a t t o t a l k a b o u t
but now, i do. but i swear it's gonna be boring.
i am going to 2E3 next year!
my class is the only Express class in secondary one
that nobody got demoted.
the class burst into cheers when
my form teacher announced that
piece of delighting news.
i guess that's a good thing.
i got Bronze for my Napfa.
good thing or bad thing?
bad thing.
Mr Neo's retirement celebration was so awesome.
i like the part when somebody brought him
on a motorcycle and went up the ramp.
it was so cute!
i almost cried when a guy from 4E7
gave a farewell speech to Mr Neo.
he used to be an offender against the laws.
it was so touching.
the Secondary One Music Articulation was somewhat boring.
but i like 1E5's performance. coolio.
and also, it was very organized.
after school, hung out for awhile while waiting for
Asyiqin, Lina and the rest.
i didn't get to see Dee as she probably
went off with Feedodido.
aww, didn't get to see her today at all! ):
while waiting for the rest,
my form teacher walked pass.
chatted to her for awhile.
HAFIZ! you bedek me!
you didn't get demoted, you a--hole!
lawl.
my form teacher said we should smack Hafiz.
and i said okay!
k, lame right.
now, i'm s p e e c h l e s s .
Justin Bieber is hot.
XOXO
.Tuesday, October 27, 2009
XOXO
.Saturday, October 24, 2009
just
walk
away
6th Cover.
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thanks! <3
XOXO
.Saturday, October 24, 2009
heyya, sup. i finally got the mood to update my blog.
i've been feeling low all this while,
i don't know for how long.
and the only thing that can cheer me up is
by playing soccer.
and i did play soccer.
with my family yesterday.
my extended family.
met up with my uncles and cousins yesterday
at Jurong's Sports Hub called Fico.
cute right the name, Fico?
haha!
my family reached first, at 715pm.
the rest of the family came at 730pm.
hung out with my fave girl cousin, Syirah.
talked&talked and gossiped&gossiped :D
then, kicked around from 8-840pm.
840 was my first match.
won 2-1, i think.
i scored both and it was girls vs boys.
hehe.
after that, went off to lepak with my fave boy cousin, Nick.
we bought Red Bull and it ''gave us wings'' .
mwahaha.
no la, it didn't give me ''wings''.
i didn't feel high at all :D
i don't know how long me and Nick hung out.
must have been quite long.
i lost track of time and my mom
had to call me as my second match was starting.
and i could still stroll into the cage.
my aunty shouted ''cepat la Shaqila!''
LOL
relax la babe.
so, lost the match. 3-1.
i scored for my team again.
hehe.
i didn't feel tired at all.
i felt like playing some more!
on the way back home in the car, me and Haziq
were so hyper!
we were singing to songs that mummy played on the CD.
all the Westlife and Akon's hits came out.
we were singing as if it was just 8pm
whereas it was already 1130pm.
it was crazie.
reached home.
found out that there were blisters on my foot.
aww )':
switched on MTV.
Scream Queens was on.
stupid show.
mummy asked what show i was watching.
i said ''nothing, just some stupid bitches''
hahaha.
but seriously, they are such idiotic bitches.
hahahahaha.
i was in sucha a good mood yesterday,
i hope i'd stay that way forever.
but unfortunately,
all good things come to an end.
XOXO
.Tuesday, October 20, 2009
i've been experiencing frequent mood swings lately.
i don't know why.
oh, maybe i do.
personal problem[s], i won't share.
i got home from school today and switched on the computer.
found a quiz about my birthday and did the quiz.
heck, were the results true.
but only if they knew and understood...
NOVEMBER
Has lots of extraordinary ideas. Difficult to fathom. Think forward. Unique. Brilliant. Sharp thinking. Fine, strong clairvoyance. Dynamic. Secretive. Inquisitive. Know how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative. Amiable. Brave. Generous. Patient. Stubborn. Hardhearted. Determined. Never quit. Hardly become angry unless provoked. Love to be alone. Think differently. Sharp-minded. Motivate self. Doesn't appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built. Tough. Deep love, emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest. Keeps secrets. Can't control emotions. Unpredictable.
bold-ed are to emphasize myself to certain people
XOXO
.Monday, October 19, 2009
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH EVERYBODY
YOU TELL ME
XOXO
.Saturday, October 17, 2009
Birthday wishes to my love, my everything, [____] .
Even tho' we may not be together (not yet) , we know we're still gonna make it, no matter what.
Just like the saying, the course of true love never did run smooth.
He is my true love, the one that has been by my side thru' everything that I have done since the day we met, 1st May.
He has been the one who stuck by me thru' thick and thin, been there for me in my times of need when my other friends couldn't be there for me, and simply, everything.
Nobody knows me like how me knows me ; my weaknesses, my strengths.
I feel at ease knowing he'll always be there for me, even if we may not be together in the future.
I can't be anymore grateful to him and I will never can find a way to repay him back.
I don't know how to express how I feel towards him.
All I can say is these three words, but some how, it doesn't feel enough..
'' I Love You ''
There'll be more obstacles coming our way, just like there always has been, but we'll overcome them.
No single soul can break us apart.
The word Forever is meant true.
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k k , enough mushy stuff. is it mushy? i find it mushy and so like ... , k k whatever la.
hahaha. it's so hot. i mean, i'm so hot. HAHA ! no la, the weather is so hot. yes yes, that's the right phrase. what phrase? you don't know? here, the phrase is '' weather - is - so - hot '' Did'cha get it? Good. i want to swim. i'm alone at home as everybody went swimming. five of my cousins came over. they're swimming. maybe i should. k, i'm going. bye.
XOXO
.Friday, October 16, 2009
i've been doing things today all half-heartedly.
he is just making everything difficult for me.
why can't he just get out of my life?
i don't want to have anything to do with him anymore.
he is the cause for all the negative feelings i have been having all this while.
he makes me walk on an endless journey of sufferings.
i wish never to see him again.
die for all i care.
today i didn't attend school.
Asyiqin called me thrice, i didn't even realize.
basically, had a very relaxing day. ( in a sarcastic way , making him feel guilty, hopefully )
well, it was a pretty relaxing day, until 1804 hours.
let's not talk about it.
before 6:04 pm, the day was awesome too.
had a girls' day out with mummy, Aunty Rynna ( mummy's friend) and Myshea ( Aunty Rynna's daughter ).
we went to Tampines Mall.
i looked at phones. Samsung Preston, it is.
but not sure when i'm gonna get it.
tomorrow then mummy's gonna tell me the game plan.
so, that stuff happened from 2pm till 6pm.
at 6pm, Aunty Rynna and i went to Simpang Bedok to buy snacks.
satay and rojak. yummmmmm :D
went back home and took the food to the pool.
ate, then i swam.
( of coz at 6:04pm, that humiliating happened)
swam with Myshea and Dean ( aunty Rynna's son) until 730pm.
now it's 848pm, i'm sleepy and tired and stressed up and worked up about alot of things.
to [___] , please text/call me tonight.
and , it's not about you, the first part of my post.
yes , lovelies , [____] is back. *smiles
XOXO
.Thursday, October 15, 2009
exams are over, finally.
what a relief.
right after the examination ended at 12pm,
was called to the Design & Technology room
as i didn't complete my project.
wasted 20minutes of my life there.
Arjunna and i were trying so hard not to burst out laughing
because of a boy that was so bloody slenger.
anyway, met up with Asyiqin & Dee afterwards.
Dee was waiting for her boyfriend
so me & Asyiqin went to have lunch.
not that we made a game plan
but, we decided to eat.
hahaha.
went to the Bedok Library's Cafe.
Asyiqin took so long to decide what food she wanted!
she kept changing her mind time & again.
i finally said to her ' why not i buy you the whole cafe?'
that cracked us up :D
she decided on pasta after all,
while i decided on tuna sandwich.
while eating, Asyiqin regretted what she bought
because she saw a man eating something
and she wished she had ordered that.
Asyiqin!
hahaha!
after we were done with our food,
made our way to Bedok Interchange.
on the way, it was like we were having a burping competition.
endless burps, one after another!
yes, people, we have burping ( and f***ing ) disorder.
hahaha !
got to Bedok Interchange, i saw Dee and her boyfriend.
i pointed out to Asyiqin, called Dee.
chat for a short while.
went off to take bus numba nine.
ooh, guess who was there ..
a guy that i have been dating
for the past 1 and a half weeks.
k, let's not even go into my love life (:
i got home, watched tee vee for a while.
and for the rest of the day,
i felt like i was living like there is no tomorrow.
i could do as i like.
mummy even said i need not go to school tomorrow!
k, i know it's wrong as there is still normal lessons but, whatever.
mummy said we'd go shopping at Tampines One
and look for my phone tomorrow.
ehehe.
what the hell, Stay My Baby is playing on Nickelodeon.
i'm sick of that song.
i'm bored.
i'm bored.
i'm bored.
let's see who i can text.
XOXO
.Tuesday, October 13, 2009
hi hi hi . today i'm in a happy mood. very happy mood.
( be prepared to see my mood change sour tmrw, just you wait )
today was a very relaxing day. nobody scolded me. i scolded nobody.
science paper wasn't as hard as i expected it to be.
hung out for a while with my friends.
went home.
watched iCarly's iDate A Bad Boy.
went swimming with Rayan.
it's been a long time since i talked about him.
Nabilah and Monyet should know (:
>> recent pictures ,
Haziq
a mom's greatest joy, her heart and soul.
BabyRayan wrapped in his towel. so cute!
he has a very big tummy !
whee !! ...
my fave. very chubby.
let's play peek-a-boo !
i'm done.
so done.
bye.
XOXO
.Monday, October 12, 2009
''you got me standing at the bottom of this mountain that we've made
and the ground is shaking from all of our mistakes''
the weather keeps changing today.
at first it's sunny.
and then it rains.
and then the sun comes back again.
but something spoilt it's mood and so it ran away.
it's just like what's happening to me these few days.
and these few days change into these past weeks.
i need to get a grip of myself.
i just can't seem to do it.
XOXO
.Saturday, October 10, 2009
''something keeps me coming,
coming back to you''
today is my dad's birthday.
why should i even care?
btw, hi ! hi hi hi.
i'm bored. Daddy's gonna pick me up to go to his place.
but not gonna sleep over there coz i don't want to.
i told him, if you wanna fetch me, can but i ain't gonna sleep over.
anw, whatever.
i want to get a Samsung Jet.
but i don't know if i should.
Daddy's using that phone, yknw.
i thought about Samsung Preston.
but Deeanne is using that phone!
hahaha, bummer (:
T700, i found out that a lot of people have that phone.
people as in, my friends.
too common.
hmm ...
i got something to tell you.
Asyiqin is my best friend.
k, bye.
XOXO
.Tuesday, October 06, 2009
what would you do if you were trapped in a room with a tiger?
how would you feel?
how would you react?
it feels like i'm in that position now. i mean, not trapped in a room with a tiger (-.-') but, i don't know how to react to this situation i'm in. i want to say/do something but people will think the negative way. i know they would. and, i wanna be open and honest but rumours will be sure to spread. how am i gonna handle it? what more, it's examination period. crazie, yknw. tryna juggle this situation and at the same time juggling with my studies. i don't know how long this thing has been going on. maybe for about two weeks or less. but, i think i'm just gonna say what's bothering me. it's gonna darn cold but it's best i be straight-forward.
some people just don't give me enough space.
oh, look. i just got myself out of the room with the tiger.
XOXO
.Monday, October 05, 2009
I never could imagine
My life without you
From the moment you walked into my world
I never knew how long a loving flame could burn
But losing you has forced me to learn
That we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know that
It's better if we just let it go...
So let's have
One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance to our first song
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Let's stay here for a while
And cherish every moment we're in denial
Coz we both know...
It's better if we just let it go...
Every time I try to take a stand at all
I see your face again and I fall
In the middle of the night, there's a scent of a rose
The smell of your perfume I suppose
But we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know
It's better if we just let it go...
But baby if we met each other under a different sky
Maybe then things would be much better between you and I
We could always hold on to this one special thing we share
But I know it'd be too much for us to bear...
So let's just have
One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance to our first song
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Let's stay here for a while
And cherish every moment we're in denial...
XOXO
.Sunday, October 04, 2009
false hopes, broken promises
it's been four months
really that long?
I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile?
Can I not like it for a while?
But you won't let me
You upset me
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget that I was upset
I can't remember what you did
But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you for too long
And that's wrong
And I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so
And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh
And said that it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right....
One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...
you wanna know who ' [____] ' is ? the guy i've been talking about all along? Afiq. yes, my ex. i remember that i once said me and him were officially over but, no. we weren't. but now, we are. he decided. we ain't gonna work out good no more. it'll be hard for me to move on because his the best thing that ever happened to me. like, the friggin' best i ever had but i guess all good things come to an end. guys like him are hard to come my way. but, i guess everything happens for a reason. i miss him. i realy do. but maybe losing him is part of my fault too. okay, let's not even go there. it has been a depressing day for me since Afiq told me in the morning. and, gosh, exams starts tomorrow. gosh gosh gosh. bummer. but, anyway, everything happens for a reason. we gotta go our separate ways. but i'm still sad. no matter what): i miss him. the song Hate That I Love You is like, totally totally about me and him. like, Totally with the capital 'T' .
CREDITS:
Asyiqin, you got my secret, babe ;)
Arjunna, thanks for being there for me when i tried to do something stupid. ehehe :)
XOXO